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2009-06-06T22:37:00.002+08:00

Eat, Watch TV & Sleep.
Yeap. That were all I did today. HEHS.

And so, Dad asked me and Mum to tag him to Woodlands Center. Had our dinner there. I think I eat more than what I can consume. Haha. Blame it to Dad. Forced me to munch everything. Blerghs. And so, I manja2 with Dad, about the mp3/4. HEHE. He bought it for me. Yessa! HEH! Thank you, Dad! Sayang lu. Hahaha.

&btw, I don't know why, Mum had been asking a lot about Sharil than about her own daughter. Wahlao! So unfair lar! Tsk.

Anyway, I can't wait for tmr night! Shisha-ing with Maira, Ainul and Sharil. Hopefully Hadi and Yanto will be able to come toooooo (((:

Okay lar, got to go now.

I want to youtube-ing.

Bye!

2009-06-02T21:34:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I'd tons of pictures of Glitz '09 to be uploaded on Facebook. But I'm so freaking lazy to do so. Hehs. Later, perhaps? Hmmm. Great, I've to wake up damn early tomorrow. Appointment with Physio will be in the morning. Blerghs. And hopefully, I would like to ask if my physiotherapist gives me the green light to come back training earlier than expected. Hopefully yea ((:

And now, I'm officially bored to death. I don't know what I want to do. I've watched two movies and read one chapter of Breaking Dawn. I don't want to rush even if I want to. Cause holiday is here. And confirm I'll be bored to death. Blerghs.

Okay uh.

I wanna youtube-ing!

Byeeee.

2009-05-24T20:49:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Okay, yea. I've changed my blogskin. Sorry if my editting sucks. Well, whatever yeaa. I don't mind.

Anyway, I can't believe that my weekend has ended. And back to usual stuffs. School school school. Tsk. Worst, UT is tmr. Wth. I've yet to study them. Tsk. And oh, I'll be starting my PD tmr. Will be meeting the PC after UT, together with Leonard. Hmm, hope everything will go as planned.

Hmm, what else? Ohhhh! My pay is coming next week. Woots! Can't wait! I wanna buy a new mp3. No more sharing with Brother. Hees. Plus, AGAIN, Mum asked to treat her to Swensen's -.-'

A week left of schooling and will be having 2 weeks of break. Yeay! Teehees. Can go out and perhaps thon too! Yeay! I loike!

Okay, gtg now. Mum is yelling right noww.

"Adikkk, go and take dinner nowwww! Or else, I tak sayang(love) you!"

Haha. How cute? Just like me. Teehees ^^

Okay, byee.

2009-05-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

we're the coolest among the cool people ((:

Morning.

It's 1:20 in the morning and yet I'm still awake. Well, I'm done with doing RJ and currently chatting with Sharil. And shit, Idk if I will be able to wake up later. I'm superduper tired. Hmm, work was aye-okay. We did closing pretty fast. By 11 sharp, all of us were done. Yeay!

Module for later will be History of Arts, hopefully, it'll be an interesting problem; without doing any indepth research. I wish though.

Haha. I'm addicted to Guitar Geek. All thanks to Emily Ng Poh Feng. HAHAHA. I hope she wouldn't scold me for putting her full name here ((: We played this game throughout Meeting 3. Haha. Luckily Sam was okay with it ((: And oh, did I ever told you that this lappy is getting on my nerve? Yeay, it IS. I really gotta to reformat my lappy. Cause out of sudden, it will be out of C drive memory which I didn't save all my files in there. And some of the programmes will not be responding. Wth? Damn freaking irritating. Especially when I'm almost done doing my work, and tadaaaaaaa. It was gone like that. Superduper heartpain siaaa )):

Okay la, I'm done updating.

I'm tired. I wanna sleep right now, right now.

Bye, take care.

2009-05-16T01:20:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates.

I was either busy with work or school. Hah, usual stuffs. Hmm. The weekend is here. But sadly, I got to work. Waduhwaduhwaduh! And yea, I'll be missing workmates outing later in the afternoon. Tsk. Never mind. You people enjoyy horr!

Hmm. What else? Hmm, well. At times, I felt like quiting. Too tired. And I need to really concentrate for my Year 2. With upcoming Portfolio to be completed ASAP and other school stuffs. Haix. Should I? But at the same time, I need the money to support myself. Nowdays, I can't depend on my parents. Dad is no longer long hours like he used to. So, his monthly allowance has dropped. So, yea. Haix. Other than work, I miss playing Floorball. Seeing Sharil, Taufiq, Lava and others went for training, really hurt me much. I wish I can really play now. Reading the Adroits blog, stating about the jerseys, bibs and importantly trainings, wahhhhpiannnggg ehhhhhh! Sakit hati okay! I wannaaaa trainnnnnn. HAIX.

Ahhh, okay uhhh.

Now what time already. Better go sleep siolsxzsxz. I'm way too tired now. Later workingggggg~!

Ahhhh, lazyyyy luhhhh. Anyone wanna replace me? Hehs.

OK. SO LONG AND GOODNIGHT LAR SEH!

2009-05-08T00:44:00.002+08:00

I'm super tired right now. I'd just completed my RJ. Blergh! I swear, it was damn short. Tsk. Hello C grade, for it. Hmm, work was aye-okay for me. So, yea.

Okay, I need to head bed right now. I had to be discipline starting from now. I mustn't skip school as and when I like already. Hazirahh being a good girl already. Hees.

So long and goodnight!

Bye.

2009-05-04T20:45:00.003+08:00

You spin my head right round, right round.

Argh. I'm having a seriously bad headache now. Thanks to the mask that I've to wear at all times at the hospital just now. Worst, doing some strengthening exercises together with it. Wahpiang! Cannot breathe sialalalasxsxz. Tsk.

Guess what? Just now, I'd almost thrown my lappy down the bed. Why? Because I've written a pretty long RJ and it was gone just like that. Who not angry siooo! But thank God, I remembered what I've typed down ((:

Okay lar.

I shall stop now. I can't think of anything else.

This headache is killing me softly seh )):

Ok, bye.

2009-05-03T21:07:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Yeah, I know. It's been damn freaking long. I've been working and busy with school. So, what do you expect?

I'm glad that I've managed to pull through a week of school. Yeah, my grades were okay. 2Bs and 2As. Power dar! Haha. All the facis are quite okay. Can joke around with. My classmates are great.

Anyway, I gotta see my Programme Chair by next week. Cause I really need to start my Portfolio Development. Waduhwaduhwaduh! Confirm chop plus stamp, I'll be damn busy by next week onwards. Haix. Oh man. Not forgetting, I gotta commit to my work too. Wahwahwah! I'll be more stressed out lar. Ergh. How I wish I was still in Year 1. Slack like siow. Always skip classes, cabot halfway, copy powerpoint slides from the seniors or other classes. Wah, heaven siow! But nowwww! Everything cracked my brain juice. STA mahh. Faci always said, "Make sure you're presentations are creative uh. Don't always do ppt slides uh. STA, must be creative". Wahpiang!
Ahh shit! I'm schooling tmr! Urgh. All the lessons have been brought forward due to the Labour Day holiday. Ishk!

Okay, enough lar.
I'm too tired to elaborate further.
Okay lar, gtg.
Take care siow! ((:

Kakak,
I hope everything goes well. I will try to talk to Daddy. I'm glad that you're coming back home with Abang. Yeah, I miss you too. Damn truckloads. I hope I will get to meet you soon. There's too many stories that I want to tell you. From the day you left us, till now. Ok, take care of yourself okay? I love you.
And to Abang Ridwan, thanks for taking care of kakak all these while. I really appreciate it. And I can see it that you've changed. Whatever it is, I'm sorry if I used to be harsh to you in the past. Because I've never even thought that this going to happen. So, yeah. I'm sorry. And no worries, I will talk to Dad soon. I will try to convince him that you're not what you are no more. And I'm glad that you've plan to get a house soon. That's great. But for now, I want you to settle your problems first before anything else. Okay? Take care.

2009-04-22T19:01:00.003+08:00

I love them (:
I swear.

Today, I really gotta admit that I'm being a very good girl. Causeeeee. For the whole day, I've survived a day without any laptop. HEES. Yea, I've send it again for the installation of CS4. Jyeah.

Anyway, today's problem is okay. Quite easy, I can say. All we did was to plan for a skit for the presentation. Easy like ABCDEF uhs. HEES.

&&&&thanks Sharil for accompany me during the breaks ((:

Okay lar.

Bye uh!

2009-04-21T18:21:00.003+08:00

First day of school and I'm already stressed up. Why? Cause I gotta do so many things in so little time. Waduhwaduhwaduh! All thanks to the compulsory briefing ft meeting that all STA students need to attend to uhs. And oh yea, thanks to the new school system too! Grr! Like OMG lar. First day already felt the pressure and stress. Why again? Knowing that we might be having attachment and knowing that we do have upcoming projects to be done. Grr!

Nevertheless, I do enjoyed today's module. Yeah, we got to take pictures using DSLR larh sey. Woots! Apart from that, my teammates are great. They are really outgoing. And I can't wait to know more about them tmr. Woots! But sadly, most of my other friends like Haziq, Farhan, Maira, Rainee, Aisyah, etc, won't be having any school tmr. Tsk. Sad sad sad. But luckily there's Sharil. Yeay! Sharil! Better go lunch with me tmr uh! If not, I go find you like how a loanshark people does. HAHA. Ceyy! Fierce or what?

Okay lar. Gtg.

Bye!

2009-04-19T20:29:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHHA! I WON! I WON MUHD SHARIL BIN AZMAN! BOO! ((:

I'm proud okayy? Cause I've been losing this game to him since idk when. So, yeah.

So, my parent decides to cancel the plan to Nenek's crib since Dad really woke up late. Tsk. Nevermind. Anyway, my cousin getting engaged on May 1st. Woots! Finally, one by one are getting engaged and married. Fuyoyo! And I can confirmed with you people that all my aunties and uncles will say "Hazirah is next!" HAHA. What only. Wait long long uh. I still want to study. Ceyyy! But yea, I really want to get atleast a Degree before I settled down with kids and a husband. Hees.

&oh btw, I can't wait for the end of this month. Cause I want to go shoppinggg! Jyeah! I wanna shop for new clothings and things for school. Yeay. Can't wait! Sharil! Ikot pegi shopping eh eh eh! ((:

Okay lar. Bye.

2009-04-19T16:29:00.002+08:00

It's Sunday. And I'm feeling damn bored.
I'm supposed to work today, but switched with Hazwan. Since, we both couldn't make it on our respective shifts.

My family supposed to go to Nenek's crib today, in the morning, because it's been some time since we stepped into the house. So, yea. But Daddy just came back from work, and he said after he woke up later on, we head straight to Nenek's crib.

School starting very very very soon yaw! Damn it! Haha. But for me, I'm going to have a long weekend yaw! Yeay for me! Cause on every Monday, I won't be having any classes. Jyeah. Besides that, I will be meeting my superduper awesome cliques like Maira, Khaty, Rainee, etc. Jyeah. And oh yea, I miss them ALOT! However, this also means that I won't get to send Muhammad to school often. Tsk. I miss Muhammad! Padahal he live 3 doors away from mine. Hees.

Okay lar.
I wanna watch online movies.
Bye!

2009-04-14T21:19:00.002+08:00

I want to blog, but I don't know what to blog.
Howw?
Hmmm.

2009-04-08T00:12:00.003+08:00

Dad: Adik, where you?
Me: In school. I got training. I told you already what yesterday(on Monday).

Dad: Okay, go change and I'll pick you up in 10 minutes time. Got something important. Hurry uh.

Me: Err, what thing important? Cannot talk otp uh?
Dad: Eh, don't ask many questions can? Hurry. Don't make me even more angry uh.

Me: Ok ok. I go change now. Bye.

I seriously thought that I did something wrong. Or simply, something really important that I really need to know. Cause his voice seems to be damn freaking serious uh. Skali, when I asked him what is the important issue, he said;
"Oh, actually it's nothing. I just want to pick you up since I was around Woodlands area. Jom, we go eat dinner somewhere."
Like OMG lar. My Dad can be so damn random at times =.='

And so, yea. Picked Mum up and off we went to BB to have our seafood dinner. Fuyoyo! After dinner, picked brother up and home sweet home.

Gee, I'm like super damn tired lar. But I just couldn't sleep yet. Tsk. Though I know that I had work later on. How I wish I had a bunch of money now? Yea, I'm so broke now. Prepaid low, sick and tired of wearing the same old clothes, couldn't go anywhere or do anything much. I swear, when I had my pay later, I wanna go shopping.

Okay lar. Bye ((:

2009-03-30T19:57:00.002+08:00

I went to the room alone, thinking that it would be my very last visit. But I was damn wrong.

"I would want you to go to Physiotherapy first before I can make any further deduction from there. Because from what I've seen, you have torn your ankle's ligamet real bad. Perhaps, if with the help of Physiotherapy, and it doesn't get any better then, I would really suggest that you're up for an operation. And by then, I would like to talk to your parents. So, yea. We'll see how it goes aight after a few visits to Physiotherapy."

I swear my mouth was wide open. I was damn freaking shocked uh. I didn't expect it luhs. Cause I thought that I was okay lar, since I'm able to walk and run. Tsk. I was damn sadd lar. I swear )):
However, I thought that was the end of it. But no, the doctor asked me to wait for my name to be called later on. Another specialist would like to see me. And few minutes later, I was called again, but this time an ang-moh lady. She told me that I need to wear this ankle thingy which was quite big and heavy for about 4 to 6 weeks. I was like whattt? Waduhwaduhwaduh! If damn cheap never mind lar, but it cost 95$. Wahpiang eh! Tsk. It felt like my ankle was being cast. Tsk )):

Haix. I'm just too afraid now. I'm scared that I won't be able to play floorball again and furthermore, to be in the team for AFO. Tsk )):
I swear, I'm damn disappointed and sad right now.

Okay, bye.

2009-03-20T12:02:00.002+08:00

The weather was perfect, and everything went as planned. I'm sure every single soul above, enjoyed themselves with the fun and games we had. But for sure, this won't be the last outing we're having ((:

&Dearest friends, thank you for yesterday. I've lots of fun yesterday. I love you.

&Oh great, I'm working later.

2009-03-17T15:23:00.002+08:00

Woke up damn freaking early today. Thanks to Sir Pat's call uhs. He was just being nice, reminding me to come work today. Speaking of work, now I felt totally damn freaking lazy. Waduhwaduhwaduh.
Hmm. My schedule, for this week, is very tight. All booked by trainings, working and outing with mates.

Anyway, certain things that he said had kept me thinking. Yes, what he said was true. But the freaking problem is with me, still. I don't know what the freaking hell am I doing. Whether is it the right or the wrong thing. I don't know, man. Haix. It really cracks my brain juice thinking about this. All I can say is that I'm afraid to commit. That's all ):

Okay lar.
I want to take some superduper powernap.
Take care.

2009-03-15T22:30:00.003+08:00

Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

True enough, but for some of it only ((:

Anyway, I was stucked at home for the whole day today. All I did was to play online games and to continue reading my Eclipse book. Next week, things are back to normal, yaw. I will be back for trainings as well as working. Yea, I have to since I'm really out of cash. Not forgetting about the Sentosa outing with my secondary school mates. Can't wait yaw! But sadly, some of them couldn't make it as they are having school or attachment. )):

Lately, Dad and I were talking about cars. He said that perhaps, he's going to a car only after I've passed my driving license. That's the best part, man. The not so best part was, he's thinking of not paying the driving license fully. Worst, he wants me to take school instead of private. Waduhwaduhwaduh! Which means I have to do lots of saving now. AFO(if i were to get selected) and driving license. Tsk,

Speaking about cars, I remembered the time when Sam drove the lorry during Rainee's chalet. Haha. Funny yet scary experience. Haha.

Okay lar.
Gtg. Take care.
Gd night.

2009-03-12T18:15:00.002+08:00

My eyes are so damn freaking heavy nowww. Tsk!

So, went for Rainee's chalet yesterday. We rent lorry siooo. HAHA. Power dar! We went for a few roundings around Pasir Ris before we picked Maira up at Esplanade. After that, most of us played cards. At around 3plus, we went to watch Man Utd's match at Simpang. For the very first time, most of us watched a match from an Indonesian channel. Power. Haha. After the match, we drove back to the chalet. Then, they different2 type of games. Very funny. Especially when Maira youknowwhat. Haha. Most of us were damn freaking tired by then. Some took power nap while others were still busy chatting with each other. 0930, we left the chalet and Hadi sent us home. Thanks Hadi! ((:

Overall, it was great. I think most of us enjoyed ourselves over there.
Thanks Rainee for the invitation ((:

Okay lar. I want to have my dinner and then sleep.

Nites.

2009-03-10T22:25:00.003+08:00

Finally, I've found the Eclipse book. Woots! Sungguhhappy luhs. &thankyou Sharil for buying them ((:

Anyway, yesterday was Sharil's bday. Bought him cake and then brought him over to Sentosa. &guess what, very weird indeed, he has never ever take the monorail before. Waduhwaduhwaduh! Weird siaa. Then we alighted over at Imbiah Station and walked our way till we reached the Luge&Skyride area. It was fun yet scary. Especially for the skyride. I couldn't believe that we were damn freaky high and was suspended by long wires that is being hooked by the seats. Fuyoh. Scaryy like siow. Then we saw nets under us, which we thought were useless. Cause from what we saw, the net couldn't possibly hold our weights if we were to fall down. Haha. Luge eh? It was damn funn lar! At first, it was quite scary cause I'm scared that I would accidentally lose control of the luge and youknowwhatwillhappennext. Haha. But after some time, it was damn fun larr. Power dar! After that, we make our way back to Vivo and had our dinner at BK. And went for some window shopping. And homesweethome. Pictures are still with Sharil. Will be uploaded soon.
Well, to Sharil, I hope you had a great day yesterday. Funny knowing you had never take monorail before. Haha. But overall, I had fun too. Thanks for the book and dinner ((: Happy 18th, yaw! ((:

And today, I'm being a good girl again. Help mum with groceries shopping, help mum make dinner and then hang out with Isam, Shabri, Nabil, Izzul & Khairul. It was an aye-okay day for me.
But can't wait for tomorrow. Coming back training in the evening and then to Rainee's chalet. Yeay! Prolly I'll be thoning over. I don't know. See if Dad allows me to.

Gee! Dad took the whole freaking bed to himself.
Waduhwaduhwaduh! Now, I gotta sleep outside.
Okay lar.
So long and good night lar.
((:

2009-03-08T22:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, MUHAMMAD SHARIL BIN AZMAN.

in less than an hour time ((:

Moving on.
Today, I just stayed at home. I've no mood to go out. So, all I did was to watch tv and online movies. And also, spent some quality time with Mum&Dad. And guess what, most probably, Dad will not pay for my license pay. Oh mannn. Tsk. So, I better save some cash now siaaa. Tsk.

I received a text from stating that there's training tmr. Sadly, I cannot make it seyy. I got plans seyy. But nevermind, i'll be gg on wednesday. Woots! Can't wait, yaw!

Ok lar, gtg now.
Take care.

2009-03-06T21:50:00.003+08:00

Hello ((:
As usual, slack with the guys. Shabri and I reached there first. We were really bored siaa. So, we did stupid magic card tricks. Haha. Soon, one by one, reached and we played poker. All of us pretended that we're inside the casino. HAHA. Funny sia.

Soon after that, the guys played soccer. And after about 30mins like that, we played poker again. Now, all of us played. Fuyoyo! Kecohrable siol. All pretend to be somewhat rich people. Waduhwaduhwaduh! And now we know why gamble is so addictive. Haha.

Mum&Dad called and reminded me about the crazy apek and flasher near my neighbourhood. Infact, there are two flasher around my neighbourhood. Scary siolalalalasxz. Waduhwaduhwaduh! Thank God that policemen are doing the roundings quite often now. Hope that crazystupididioticapek and thosetwostupidfreakmoron flasher got caught soon. Sorry for the languages yea? (:

Okay, good night!

2009-03-05T14:52:00.004+08:00

Hello.
Was supposed to go jogging/walk in the morning. But I just couldn't wake up then. Waduhwaduhwaduh! Maybe I'll go later on in the afternoon. Insya'allah ((:

Anyway, for the past few days, I'm being a good girl yaw! Help Mum to clean up the house. Ceyceycey. Power dar! HAHA. But of course, Mum gave me tips for that. Lagi power eh eh eh.

And oh yea, I'm heading back to training next week. So, whatever it is, I gotta take my lazy ass to go for some strengthening on my own before next week. Yeah. Not forgetting work too, hopefully they'll let me work after so long MIA-ing.

Did I ever tell you that Muhammad is getting adorable and handsome day by day? Yes, he is, baby! He's just 5 years of age and yet he talked like a big boy. And yes, he will always be my baby ((:

Okay, gtg now .
Take care!

2009-03-03T23:05:00.000+08:00

Thank God.
Why? Cause of what Aisyah, Shabri, Nabil, Isam, Kavu, Izzul, Kyt, Khair and I had planned turned out well even though there was some last minute reshuffling. And I would like to thank all of you for making all of these a success.

Zeeq Rentequiero,
I really hope you enjoyed your night with us, although it
was just a simple & small celebration.
And I’m really sorry for
“avoiding” you these few days. Not asking you to hang out, not texting you ever
since you’re back from Hong Kong and making you feel that we’ve forgot you;
simply, everything that we did for the past few days. We just want to make this
celebration a success. Sorry yea.
Again, happy birthday bro. Aku sayang
kau.

(:
Seeing that brother of mine, makes me happy. Cause, if I’m not wrong, it’s been a while since I’ve seen him that happy.

Okay, good night!

2009-03-02T19:28:00.003+08:00

No text messages, no call from you.
All I can do is to hope.
That you're going to be okay and everything's fine.
I'm praying for you, still.

Oh, hello.
I simply did nothing today. Apart from doing some chores, I would simply watch teevee or online movies. Mum didn't let me out cause for the past few days I've been going out till late night.
Thought of going to Yew Tee to buy meals for dinner. But it was raining then. So ended up asking Mum to cook for me. Heh ((:

Hmm, looks like someone's birthday is tmr larh seh. Ceyyy ! Da 18 tahun sehh.
Happy Advance Birthday, Zeeq Rentequiero! Aku saayyaaannggg kauuuu ((:

Ok la, I need to settle certain stuff.
Byebye. Take care.

2009-02-27T23:02:00.003+08:00

Hello.
I think I need to change my skin soon. Am very bored with it already. Hmm.
So, the outing has been clearly planned out. Yeah! Can't wait for it. 19 march yea!

Hmm, looks like there's a lot of march babies sehh. My ka-ching ka-ching are running out already siolsxzsxz. Tsk. I really need to get back to work so that by the time school started, I got some cash. And I really want to get back to training. I don't care if I still can't run. I just want to come.

okay lar.
I want to sleep already.
Selamat Malam yaww!

&oh, HAPPY ADVANCE BDAY SYAKIRRRR !

2009-02-21T10:34:00.003+08:00

Good morning!
I was woken up by Dad. Cause soon, we're leaving and again, be at the hospital the whole day.

Yesterday, came down to seniors and slacked with them. It was fun yea. They played soccer and I watched. As I was watching, it really reminded me of how we're used to be when we're still in blue and grey uniform. I missed it, very much.

This brother of mine, is now at Hong Kong. Shabri and I really miss his presence. Cause usually, we would be either talk on the phone or webcamming till midnight. Aku rindu kau lar! Take care, babe. &have fun over there ((:

Okay lar.
Got to go now.
Take care.

&yea, i miss you too((:

2009-02-16T21:09:00.004+08:00

The movie above is superbbbbb! Really, I swear! ((:
I'd watched it yesterday at MS, with Sharil. After that, we were supposed to meet Maira at her outlet, but she was lateee. Sedih sangatsangat )): And so, we proceeded to meet Raini at Pacific Plazaa. Gawddd! It was great to meet her, like finally eh. Then we waited for Hadi and Sam to arrive. It was fun to be driving during the night. First stop was Marina Barrage. Power la deyy! Slack till don't know what time and next, we headed to ECP, since we don't know where else to go. Again, we slacked, talked crap, smoked till 1am before we decided to go home. It was great to finally to hang out with the floorball people ((:

Tmr, I had to reach hospital as early as 0730 sehh. Cause I've to take care of my uncle. I don't even know if I'm able to wake up early. Tsk. Never mind la.

Okay la, gonna have my dinner.
Take care ((:

2009-02-15T11:17:00.002+08:00

First of all, I thank God that dearest uncle is getting better and stronger every single day. He could slowly communicate with us. I know it's hard for him to say it out, but atleast he tried. Apart from that, he's getting physically stronger. Yeay for him. However, it was kinda sad for all us when people kept on sympathizing him. They would go on and say that they couldn't believe that he was sick till this state and it wasn't like him whom used to be jovial and independent man. Haix. Eventually, he would cry. Aww man.

Okay, moving on.
I can't wait for me to get back to work. I need some cash man. And also, I can't wait for me to really run and get back to training soon! Ouuuu, tak sabar nye! Heh.

Ok la. Got to go now.
Gonna bathe and go to the hospital.
Take care!

2009-02-08T17:08:00.000+08:00

Hello.
I have nothing else to do. So, i blogged. Well, it was quite a tiring weekend for me.

On Friday, planned to meet Raini. It's been don't know how long since I last met her. But cancelled them last min. Never mind, there's always next time ((: So, last min thon with Haziq and Isam. Movie Marathon.

Today, was supposed to go to hospital. But the relatives doesn't let me. Cause dearest uncle isn't in his best condition. Thank God, that he has gain conscious. Unfortunately, he has yet to respond. And if I'm not wrong he has to undergo another operation soon. Haix. I really hope that he's going to be okay. Praying hard for that.
So, here I am, at home with brother.

As I was bloghopping, I realised how much I really miss hanging out with them. And I really hope that all of us will be able to make it on that day. And I really mean everyone, regardless whether we used to be friends or foes. So, yeah. Hopefully.

Okay, gtg.
I will continue watching tv now.
Goodbye and takecare ((:

2009-02-05T20:59:00.002+08:00

Waduhwaduh!
Seriously, things had gotten out of hands. More and more people had come to us and asked if it was for real. HAHA. Waduhwaduh! So to all. I want to make this loud and clear. IT WAS ONLY MEANT TO BE A JOKE. NOT FOR REAL. SO, YEA. J-O-K-E! Get it? Hmm.

Okay, moving on.
Yesterday, went to TTSH to see my uncle. Well, I was really sad. Nothing really cheered me up. Not even drinking Coke or Mum&Dad got me chocolates. It was really heartbreaking for all of us. Especially for his family. His wife and daughter cried all night long. I tried my best to console them. I tried. But ended up I felt like crying too. Haix. The operation was estimated to be 8hours. And we estimated that it would prolly end about 7pm. But till around 9pm, he was still in the operation theatre. Haix. And guess what? He was only out at 530 in the morning and had to be warded in the ICU. Haix. Yes, the operation went well. No complication at all. Thank God for that. But the thing is now, he wasn't conscious and to be watched. Doc didn't allow all of us to come to visit because his condition is critical right now. So, all I can do is to pray. Pray that he will be okay. And that he will recover soon.

Okay la.
Nothing much to say now.
Goodnight, take care.

2009-02-03T11:42:00.005+08:00

Gosh! I really really miss my classmate; w26b. Tsk. But nevermind. If there's nothing on next week, I would be probably coming down for the class chalet ((:

ANYWAY, it's going to be a week. Since I last met Sharil. Yeah, I do miss him. But sungguh irritating when Mum kept asking about his life & his stuffs. Waduhwaduh! Mama, you go ask him yourself cans? Tsk. I'm heading to gym with him tomorrow. Yeah, can't wait! Finally, I'm going to start exercising. Woots!
&oh, I can't wait for tmr night. Will be heading to Kak Emil's house. Finally, I got to see Matyn Emir Khan ((: He has really grown up you know!

Okay la. Better have my lunch now.
Bye, take care.

1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you ; ILoveYou.

2009-02-03T01:08:00.002+08:00

Have you ever felt that you can't have anything that you really want/like?
Well, that's how I felt now.
It hurts, yea. It does.
But life gotta move on.

Be optimistic, that's what Zeeq told me.
You're right, brother. Thanks.

I spent the afternoon at Abi's house and just slacked there. Till around 8 plus, we headed home. Since Nabil had to be home. HAHA. Bro, you are like anak dara. Seriously ((:
HAHA.

Okay, good night to all.
Take care.

2009-01-31T14:32:00.002+08:00

"Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason ... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."
-Edward Cullen;
Extracted from the book "New Moon".

Wahwahwah. VERY VERY touching lar sey. How I wish a guy would say that to me. HAHA. And so, I'm done reading the book. Yeah. Since I had nothing better to at home, I read. I remembered the last book that I read was Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow. That was when I was in secondary four.

I guess today I will be stucked at home again. Dadd had to go to work in the morning. So, no one to bring me out. Tsk. Mum is sleeping now. Brother went out for "Kuda Kepang" training. Shabri and gang are hanging out at his house. Thought of coming over later. But, I don't know. Will see how later. Hmm.

Ok, bye lar.
Take care ((:

2009-01-29T22:15:00.004+08:00

Khairul & Shabri

Me with Haziq whom always been there for me (:

Me, Haziq & Nabil.

The band of brothers came over to visit me. Oh, I so love you all. Thank you very much. We hung out under the void deck till late evening. Since all of us were hungry, I invited them over to my crib and Mum&Dad cooked dinner for all us. Thanks Mum&Dad! Love you. Khair and Izzul came too! Super fun! I had great time with them (:

How I wish the rest of them will be there too. Just like old times (:

&oh! Great news! My ankle is getting better. I'm able to walk VERY slowly without crutches. YEAH! Soon, I'll be able to walk! Oh superduper can't wait!

Okay, that's all.

Bye.

I miss playing floorball.

I miss all the floorball people ):

2009-01-28T22:26:00.003+08:00

Khair Bin Hamidon; Kuceng (:
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!Here goes:

1)WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
With Me - Sum 41

2)HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Better in Time - Leona Lewis

3)WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Love Lockdown - Kanye West

4)WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
I think God can Explain - Splender

5)WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Tonight - FM Static

6)WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Stay Close, Don't Go - Secondhand Serenade
If you leave me tonight, i'll wake up alone. Don't tell me i will make it on my own. Awww! Sweet nyer! HAHA.

7)WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Cookie Jar - Gym Class Heroes
WTH?

8)WHAT IS 2+2?
Tshirt - Shontelle Layne

9)WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND/s?
Beautiful - Akon ft Colby Odonis
TOTALLY!

10)WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Pictures of You - The Last Goodnight

11)WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Body on Me - Nelly ft Akon
wth?

12)WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Aku Masih Sayang - ST 12

13)WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
About A Girl - The Academy Is.
Wahh, cam lesbian plak. Waduh waduh!

14)WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I dont care - Fall Out Boy
WTH? Sadd nyerr.

15)WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Take A Bow - Rihanna

16)WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
With You - Chris Brown
HAHAH!

17)WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade

18)WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Superhuman - Chris Brown ft Keri Hilson
You changed my whole life. Don't know what your doing to me with your love. I'm feeling all super human, you did this to me. A super human heart beats in me. Nothing can stop me here with you. Super human :D
19)WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
1234 - Plain White T's

20)HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Decode - Paramore

21)WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Hot and Cold - Katy Perry
Cause you're hot then you're cold. We fight, we break up. We kiss, we make up? HAHA.

22)WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Puspa - ST 12

23)WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Suria Hatiku - Taufik Batisah

24)WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
More than Words - Frankie J

25)WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
When you look me in the eyes - Jonas Brothers
When you look me in the eyes, and tell me that you love me. MANNN! That can be scary at times tooo!

26)DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Live Your Life - Rihanna ft T.I

27)IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Miss Independent - Ne-Yo

28)WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Luahan Hati + Memang Khilafku (Medley) - Thaqif

29)WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Just Dance - Lady Gaga ft Colby Odonis

Funny seh. HAHA. You should try it (:
Ok, bye!

2009-01-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

You tell me that I’m special even when I know I’m not (:

I kept thinking that my leg is getting better. But I was wrong. My leg was swollen again each and every time I went for a walk. My body was damn weak too. I barely feel my leg. Haix.

And yesterday, went out with family to have our lunch at Northpoint and went for a small shopping spree. I bought a dress which cost half price. It was somewhat I found online. Then we headed to Causeway Point. Again, we had a small shopping spree. Over there, I bought an Adidas perfume, like finally. After that, we went back home. And I tell you, this was the saddest moment. Mum and Dad had put all the things that we bought on the table, which only then that I found one bag missing. Guess what bag? The dress that I got for half price! Waduh waduh! Seriously I was damn sad till I was about to cry know. Even though, it wasn’t my money. But I’ve been searching for that kind of dress for quite some time. I’ve wanted to buy it online but it was quite ex. When I saw it over that shop, I quickly grabbed it. Moreover, it was on half price. But sadly, it was gone. Dad forgot to take when we were at Banquet. Ishk! Never mind. It wasn’t meant to be mine. What to do? Nah, I don’t blame Dad. Ok, whatever with this.

And yes, my family didn’t go to Batam. Dad was afraid that all of us won’t be able to enter Batam due to the expiry date is less than 6 months. Well, I’m happy that we didn’t go, really. ‘Cause I’m sure that my leg will be damn swollen after the holiday. Hmm, maybe next time.

Anyway, Dad won’t be working till don’t know when. Happy because he will be able to take me around for a walk. Sad because I won’t be able to watch tv as much and wake up late. Tsk.

One sentence: I miss everyone I knew. I swear.

Ok, that’s all.
Bye. Take care.

2009-01-23T11:53:00.003+08:00

Batam, anyone?
HAHA.

Yes, you got it right. Perhaps my family will heading to Batam tmr morning. It was Dad's last minute plan. Aiyoyoyo. Now, Mum and I trying to get through the ICA Call-Centre, just to ask if all of us are able to travel overseas, knowing that our passport expiry is atleast 5 months now. Aiyoyoyo. See la. So enthu asked me to book the tickets online yesterday. Ishk ishk ishk.
Ok, whatever. I won't be able to come down and watch the girls/guys game due to this. Dad kept pestering me to keep on calling the ICA thing. Waduh waduh! Anyway, sorry yea? All the best for the games yaw! (:

Well, today will be the last day of being a freshie. Wahwahwah. Later on in April, dah jadi Year 2. Waduh waduh! Hmm. I really enjoyed being Year 1. Relax and chill, I may say. Getting to know new friends, whom I totally love and had fun with. I'm so going to miss all of my current classmates, W26B. &Oh, not forgetting W35J too. I love you all. Year 2 is coming. There's some projects we have to do and modules seems to be difficult. Well, importantly, I have to try to attend all classes and NOT to skip any classes. Hopefully, yea.

Ok, I got to go now.
Take care.

2009-01-21T18:27:00.001+08:00

I want to run.
I want to jump.
& I want to walk as per normal!

You know, it’s really irritating when you’re unable to walk like how you used to. The more you tried, the more frustrating it is. I don’t know why. You’re often left behind because people around you tend to forget that you’re on crutches. Apart from that, I’m quite saddened when friends asked me to join them for dinner or even just hang out at the usual place. I’m ok with it. But it’s quite tiring for me and that I think I’ve wasted most of my money on cab fares and now, I’m quite broke. Tsk.

However, I can’t wait to hang out with Fatin, a good friend of mine in primary school. It’s been 9876543210 days since we last met. The last time when I was in secondary two I think. Then we both are busy with school and other things. Yea, I hope Belle is able to make it too; hopefully.

Anyway, yesterday for the very first time, I’ve watched Sinetron “Istri Untuk Suamiku”. I don’t know why that there is a part of me saying that I want to watch it again next week. Wahwahwah. HAHA. Ok, whatever.

Alright, I got to go now.
Mum has been yelling at me asking me to eat my lunch cum dinner.
Ok, take care.

2009-01-20T21:27:00.000+08:00

Hello.
To my suprise, i'd managed to seize the internet from dontknowwhat&where. Heh. Ok, whatever.

Firstly, i want to congratulate the RP Girls for making it through the finals! Yeay! Power larh you all :D &oh. Get well soon MW! Perhaps, i will be going down. But at ITE Simei sialalalalasxz. Very very very very very very very far for me. Especially with my condition like this. Waduhwaduh! Soooooo, hmmmmm. To go or not uh?
Gosh! Speaking of Floorball, i've missed playing it. I want to play together with Raini & Maira. Nevermind, i really hope that i'll be able to play them when school reopens in April. And would train my ass off for Div 2. Hopefully.

I think our relationship is getting better. Hope it will remain this way. Thank you for everything while i'm in this condition. (:

Okay la. Got to go.
Take care.

2009-01-08T15:44:00.000+08:00

Hello.

I think I’m addicted to Heroes. I don’t know why. I’ve been watching it ever since I have to stay at home. Hah.

Anyway, I got real bad news about my ankle. Hmm, I’ve torn my ligament. And it seems really bad. Tsk. Doctor advice me not to walk or put any pressure on the leg. Hence, I’ve to move around with crutches. Damn! It’s tiring using that thing. Indeed, the blue black thing is a blood clot man! Gee. So, doctor gave me 17 days MC and three months of not working or going trainings. Aiyayayaiii.

So, ya. Three months of staying at home. I don’t know what I’m going to do. Mum said, “Since you will be at home and have nothing to do kan. Go bake cookies lar! Then you sell them to our neighbors.” Hahahahah! I laughed my ass out when I heard that. Bake cookies? Hmm, maybe I should. Cookies anyone? (:

I miss hanging out with Rainee, Maira, Khaty, Ira, Haziq, Shabri, Khair, Izzul, Isam and everyone else. And I miss secondary school life; every day going home with a whole bunch of people, hanging out in class or at the pondok till late evening. Simply, everything.

People keep on telling how eager they are in turning 18 this year. To me, I think it isn’t that big deal. I’m just legal to buy cigarette, alcoholic drinks, getting driving license, and to be in a club. Cool huh? I guess it’s nothing much. Oh ya! Speaking of cigarette, it has been don’t know how many days since I last smoke! Hip hip hooray! And I don’t feel any temptation of smoking. Usually, I would have temptation to smoke when I saw Brother or Dad smoking in the house. Haha! Yeah! I hope that I could remain this way for the time being or perhaps a way to stop smoking! Hopefully, praying hard.

Wahwahwah. Such a long post sehh! Okay lah. Got to go now.
Take care.
Ohoh!Happy 18th Birthday Ruzaini!

2009-01-05T13:24:00.001+08:00

Hello.

How I wish I am fully aye-okay and could enjoy every single moment I’m in right now. Wouldn’t that be great?

I’ve missed countdown party over at Marina Barrage together with friends. Instead, all I could do was to stay at home and rot to death. Okay, not death la. But seriously, I’ve never stay at home these freaking long before. I’ve missed work last week and adding on next week or the week after next week. Damn. Worst, I’ve missed playing for IVP. Haix.
All thanks to the ankle la. Thanks eh. And I felt that I’m like a newborn baby; learning how to walk slowly. I seriously hope that I’m able to walk as per usual soon. I want to run, jump all. Please recover soon dear ankle.

Well, I think it’s too late to say all these but never mind.
New Year had begun. It was sad to leave year 2008. I’ve enjoyed that year very much; getting into a tertiary school, knowing new and lovable friends, able to play the sport that I’d love (well, somehow similar to that), and much more. It has been a rollercoaster ride for all of us, I assume. Well, goodbye 2008. My resolution? Well, I don’t really make one. I won’t tend to stick to them. Overall, I’m looking forward to year 2009.

Well, that’s all for now. I think.
There’s just something that I wanted to tell but I just don’t know what it is. It has been there since yesterday. Ah, never mind. Forget about it.
Goodbye.

2008-12-26T20:08:00.002+08:00

Hello.
I’m back!

It has been a few days or weeks that I’ve last updated. Again, I’ve yet to repair my internet at home. Yeah, I’ve no time to repair them. Mum and Dad have been expecting me get it done all by myself.

Anyway, I’m using my holidays to spend good quality time with my brothers. And as usual, brothers and I had a great day at ECP despite getting fined, which eventually spoilt our mood. But overall, we have a great time with each other. We simply talked like there’s no tomorrow. Till then, I’ve realized that how much I’ve missed them and how much I’ve went “missing” from them. I hope that I would be able to do so again soon, as in hanging out with them. I would still love you all no matter what. And I bumped into Ira on that day! How great. I was just talking about her. And poof! She was walking passed us. HAHA! Babe, I miss you!

Apart from that, I’ve been working quite a lot these days. Yeah man, I need money. Thought of spending this month’s pay but I can’t. Just because of the pathetic fine. Damn. But never mind, I’m so looking forward to next month’s pay. I want to treat my family dinner. Since, I’ve yet to treat them on their birthdays. Dad’s was last week, Mum and Brother next month. I guess I will make it all up next month. So, yeah.

Pssstt: I seriously don’t want to do any attachment at Jurong Point ever again cans?

School is starting next two weeks. Wow, how fast times flies. Reopening of school means the start of IVP. RP’s women are in Group B, which means that we’re in the same team with the University. Hope that we’re able to pull it through till the end.

I miss Raini and Maira. I’ve yet to see them these holidays. Girls, see you all soon okay.

Okay, I think I’m done now.
I got many things to talk actually. But, never mind. It’s not that important btw.
Will update soon.
Bye, take care!

2008-12-09T13:46:00.004+08:00

Hello.

So, yesterday was Hari Raya Aidiladha. All i did at granny's house was to eat, play games, watched movies, sleep and went home. Haha. But it was fun. We watched clips we took at Terengganu. How childish all of us can be while playing games. I think out of all the trips we had together, this was the best one. As in, we're really bonded together.

All my cousins thought that it will as boring as the previous trips. So, we brought various games and even laptops to entertain ourselves. But we were wrong. When we played beach soccer, uncles and aunties joined us. When we played water polo, they joined us too. Wow. Impressive ?

Today, in the morning, I don't feel like going school nor training. I don't know why. Maybe because of the latest news i got about her? Hmm. I don't know. The thing is after so long i didn't receive any news about her, and now after i received them, she was getting married tmr, 330pm, ROMM? Like merepek kan? Haix. I don't know, seh. I want to go but i don't want to either. I miss her, yes i really do. I can't deny that fact. But there's just something that is holding me back. Saying that, it's not a good idea to meet her. Haix. Gawd. I'll let tmr decides everything.

Ok lar. Gtg.

Take Care.

2008-12-03T15:20:00.000+08:00

HEYHO , LET'S GO !
HEH .

Okay, it's three ten o'clock and we have yet to start any presentations. Aiyoyoyo! Confirm chop plus stamp, we end late.

Today, i've no idea why i'm feeling kinda low. There's nothing wrong with me or me with the others. Or even my surroundings. Haix. I don't know lar. Maybe because i'm way too tired. I realised that ever since i got back from the Terengganu trip, i haven't get much rest. All i did was to come school, went for trainings and working. Gawd, i seriously serious need a long breakk. Which i think that i wouldn't have. IVP is coming in less than 25 days. I guess i will be spending the three weeks holidays in school. TRAINING & FLOORBALL CAMP! So, yeah. Hmm.

the only place i want to be and do right now. by the beach and to run along the beach.

Ok, goodbye.
Take care!

2008-11-26T10:30:00.000+08:00

Aunt Nita, Grandma & Abang Nasuha (TourGuide).

At Crystal Mosque (:

Mum & Brother <3

My Fav Lil Cousin, Nisa <3>

Nice right ?

The view from my room (:

During Breakfast.

Nisa & Grandma <3

& THANK YOU ABANG AH (:

As promised, pictures during the trip have been uploaded. So, yar (:

Today, I can't wait for training. It's been quite sometime that I've touched my Hitman Stick. So, yeah. Can't wait!

Ok lar. I wanna get back to do worksheet.
Take care.

2008-11-25T10:40:00.003+08:00

Hey hey you you.I
Yes, I'm back. Feels good to be back home, Singapore. Yeah.

Ok, the trip was fine. We had lots of fun. From playing Water Polo, Beach Soccer, Taboo, Snap Cards and more. Well, I guess all of us enjoyed ourselves over there. Nenek too. Never did I seen her laugh her ass out while watching us played Water Polo and Beach Soccer. So, what did I shop over there? Hmm, I bought one Nike shirt. That's all. Mum bought Batik cloth, Dad bought shoe and Batik Shirt and Brother bought shoe & shirt. Actually kan, over at Terengganu, there's nothing to shop. Every shop sells the same thing ; BATIK clothings. VERY VERY BORING. All the younger generations were really bored with that till we left the place and head to the bus. So, yar.

Ok, enough for today.
I damn tired now. Want to sleeppppppp.
Good day!

*Will upload the pictures next post.

2008-11-21T14:47:00.001+08:00

Hazirah VS Abel. & I WON ! Yeay.

Hello.
I've just ended the presentation and played Rock, Scissors & Paper with Abel Prabu s/o Christopher Ravy. HAHA. Full name somemore. Heh.

Tonight, will be the night, yaw! Excited but sad at the same time. Excited because I can't wait to spend the holiday with the whole cousins. Sad because I'm going to miss each and everyone of you. I won't be able to meet them till Wednesday. So long kan. Ishk.

Anyway, Maths (VB) is okay. Not that difficult. My group managed to solve the whole codes. Yeay. Thanks to Ryden and our hard work of getting the codes right.

Okay la. Got to go, now.
Take care. I will update when I got back from the holiday.
I'M GOING TO MISS YOU PEOPLE (:

2008-11-20T14:54:00.003+08:00

Hey hey you you.

It's been tiring for me these days. Mentally and physically. I don't know why. Problems, have yet to be fully solved. I don't know when it will end. Haix. Year 2008 will be coming to an end. In fact, it will end in a month time. Time flies so fast, yaw. Without me realising it. It has been quite a memorable year for me. Having a wonderful time with my love ones. I'm sure it can't be replaced, whether it's good or bad.

Anyway, from Friday night onwards, I won't be in Singapore. I will be away for a holiday to Terengganu. I wonder it will be fun there. Just the word of "Terengganu", it sounds boring. Hah.

Well, of course, I'm going to miss everyone that I knew (: & don't miss me too much okay? Heh. KIDDING.

Ok, I got to present now.
Take careee :D

& this is what I did when Abel's team is presenting (:

2008-11-14T14:00:00.001+08:00

Well, the reason I’m not updating the blog because I’m very busy with my own things; like school, floorball, friends, family, love life. Argh, simply everything. And i kinda of stress of right now. I felt so pressurized with everything around me.

Call me weak, loser, pathetic or whatever. Crying is all i can do now. I know, by crying it doesn't solve anything. But hey, what can i do kan. Argh. i don't know what else i can do now. I think i will just let nature takes its course.

Thank you friends, for being there for me. I can't thank you enough for these. All of you were really there for me when i'm in need. Especially in times like this. I still remember how each of you play a role as a good friends. And again, thank you. & i thank god that i've found you people. Hazirah loves you all. I swear.

& to you,
I don't know what's with us for the past weeks. Well, it's been a month straight that we've been fighting over small things. Haix. It has been tough for us, i know. You said that you don't want to fight. But actions speak louder than words. Like what you said, you want these to stop but your actions. Urgh. I'm not blaming you. But you hurt me real bad. I'm sorry. At times, i can't hold on to it anymore. You want me to make a decision within a short period. Don't you know it's pressurizing to me? Haix. I have to think how each of my decision affect you and me. I'm too weak. I'm too tired about everything. I’m sorry. This has to happen. You take care okay? Goodbye.

Okay, i think i've said enough.
Take care, update real soon.

More than words, baby.

& I'm so not in the mood now. I just want to break down and cryy.

2008-11-08T01:24:00.003+08:00

"I remember the times we spent together.
On those drives.
We had a million questions
All about our lives"
- Tonight ; FM Static.

i miss the moments where i could really hang out with my love ones . but now , i rarely have time for my brothers . in fact , i hardly have time for myself . well , yeah . i have no life . monday to thursday trainings and friday to sunday working . so , you see . i'm sorry guys if i hardly have time to lepak with you all . i'm sorry .

sometimes , things doesn't go the way you planned them . & you can't blame anyone for it neither you could blame totally on yourself . sometimes , things are not meant to be that way , and so , it changed . haish .

well , i'm freaking damn tired now . my body are aching . my arms are hurting . my knees are cramping . & i got ugly right knee now . thanks to the big swollen patch . from the sides , it's damn ugly laaa . like a big patch buldging out . eeeee . ugly kan .

okay , my eyes are 1000000kg .
okay , i'm lying . just that i really want to sleeppppp . *yawn*

update really soon , yawww .
so long and good night :D

2008-11-05T14:32:00.007+08:00

best picture of the day :D

i love them :D

hello :D

yesterday's beat encore performance was powerrr . fun watching them yawww :D

& watched with these people . i love you alll larrrrr :D & oh , pictures with rainiii . anything asked her for the thumbdrivee :D

today , training as per usual . maybe the new coach is coming . well , i dont know . just wait and see laaa . i damn tired you know . tho i slept quite early ytd . so , yeah . today's module wasnt that bad . can say it's easy too . well , only three teams today . should end early . if not , i would really scold this relief faci . hahaha . KIDDING .

okay , got to go now .
take care .

say hello to November !

2008-11-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

hellooooo :D
okay , i just came back from peiling's house . oh yeah . i think all of us enjoyed the bbq there . guys especially . i think they all tried to throw everyone inside the swimming pool . haha . & worst , they bought racing toy cars ? yeah . the ones with the remote control . yeah . how adorable ? hahaha .

besides that , the bbq was the best way to lepaskan rindu of my favourite girls . Raini , Maira , Ainul , Mable & Khadijah . but sadly , Khadijah wasn't there ):

one week holiday going to end soon . & when school re-opens , all back to square one . training almost everyday . back to physical training too ! ahhh , damnnn . now , have to focus on IVP which is early january . so , yeah . going to train hard and hope that i gotta play for IVP (:

& oh , pictures to be uploaded soon (:

okay lar .
gotta stop now .
take care .

2008-10-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

oh , hello again :D
thank you sharil for lending me the portable modem again :D

just now , went to slack at both pondok at teck whye . cant believe that i slacked from one thirty till around 9 plus ? cool huh . i miss them so much that i dont mind going back home late . really . then at around 5 plus , went to lot to eat at pizza hut . yeay . the pictures is with khair . khairrrrr , send me the pics cans ? :D
after that , we slack at the side of lot one . so , yeah . really had fun today :D

bbq at peiling's house tmr . yeay . cant wait . i think im going to eat like pig seh . haha . kidding . butbut , daddy is so whatever seh just now . he said that he wouldnt let me stay over and to return the next morning . haiiyaaaa . gotta sweet talk to him tmr . heh .

"Hurt my feelings but that's the past.
I believe it.
And I know that time will heal it"
-Better in Time ; Leona Lewis .

okay lah .
take care all .

*kakak , i really miss you .

2008-10-29T12:27:00.000+08:00

eh , hello :D
i'm at the hospital now . so , while waiting , let me make use of the internet here . heh . and yes , everyone , there's wireless here in the hospital . ohgawd . i dont know how many people asked me the question . wahpiang eh . haix .

so , yeah . yesterday was the best . hanging out with my brother . only god knows how much i miss them . really . brother brother hams , i really miss you . and yesterday was the best way to lepaskan my rindu :D

okay , from today till saturday , i'm not working except to go for trainings in school . so , yeah . sape2 wants to ajak hams kuar , you may do so :D

alright , i've said enough .
take care & i miss everyone .

i really trying hard to forget everything . and it's not as easy as it may seems .

2008-10-25T05:15:00.000+08:00

hello .
as you all know . i've deleted my old blog and created a new one . well , i dont know why . i just did it . so , yea . hmm .

every relationship has its ups and down . i just can't deny that . but this time , we're not into one . but we're fighting like a couple . i don't know why . it's just seems hard for me . well , it is not what i'm asking for actually . but it just the way things are right now . im not saying that i dont want to make this right . i do . i really do . but i need time to think about it all over again . what i really want and what i really need to do for the better . for the both of us . i'm not like you who can digest everything at one go . i'm the type of girl who take it slow and steady . thats why i need time and space . i hope you can understand . really , i hoping for that . but , never mind . don't want to talk about it neither .

i have nothing else to say . have a good day , all .

"Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down"
-Over You ; Chris Daughtry